Thoughts on Motherhood

I used to think that the happiest I had ever been was when I was loving the deepest I had ever loved, and that was when I lived in Ecuador working in the orphanages. Because of that experience I felt that my true calling or mission in life was orphanage work because I had never felt so happy or complete. I pursued those dreams for many years trying to accomplish what I "knew" to be who I really was. At one point I was even willing to jeopardize getting married and having my own family because of how strong I felt about "being and influence" and "changing the world." But now, as I hold my baby boy I feel more powerful then I could have ever dreamed. Feeling the power of his spirit I feel that by being his mother I will change the world. By bringing him here and raising him in righteousness, teaching him of the power that he can have through Christ...is the "influence" and "change" I will make. I now feel like I know who I really am because of my little baby. Motherhood has brought a new view to life, a new resolution to become better and more like Christ, a deeper desire to serve others, and new sense of who I really am and the greater power I have. I know that Winston is already changing the world, one diaper at a time. Ha Ha

When becoming a mother there are two things that I have absolutely needed...1.) My own mother and 2.) Miles. First, it's amazing how much you need your mommy when you become one. Luckily, mine lives in the same town. She is the best person alive when it comes to service. She knows exactly what is helpful and how she is needed. What a perfect example to have as a "mother." Second, Miles has been the CUTEST dad in the whole world! I didn't change a diaper for the first 2 weeks of Winn's life. When Miles went back to work I changed my first diaper (which happened to be a blow-out, of course). I know that Miles is such an amazing father because he is an amazing Husband. One of my favorite quotes says something like, "the best way to show your love for your children, is to love their mother." Miles is superb at this. He is incredibly loving and understanding and fun and on and on and on. I love seeing his love for Winn. I married a true man! It just makes me so excited for our life together and there is nothing I want more then to be with them for eternity. Thank goodness that "families can be together forever, through Heavenly Father's plan."

Winston Miles Wells

Winston Miles Wells joined our family on March 10th at 11:20am at a whopping 8 lbs 3 oz and 20 inches long. He is absolutely perfect in every way and I'm SO in love! Now you may be wondering about the name...? I know the first thought that probably comes to your head is "Winston Churchill?" Well, although it's not a bad thing to be named after him, that isn't exactly what we had in mind. Winn is a family name on both sides! It is my Grandma LeNae's maiden name and my little brothers middle name, and Miles' Grandmothers nickname (Winifred.) We LOVE the name Winn and that's what we've been calling him, HOWEVER, with a one syllable last name, I wanted a two syllable first name...hence...Winston! I also think that the first boy should be named after his father, and "Miles" is a good strong name anyway!

The two LOVES OF MY LIFE

The Experience...(Readers Discretion Advised) haha

A couple of people have been asking me about the experience and while I'm still slightly traumatized...here it is. I was scheduled to be induced at midnight on Thursday morning. I got there and was only measuring a 1+ (for those who don't know what that means...lets just say you have to be a 10 before you can push the baby out). So they gave me a pill to get me started and Miles and I slept until 8 the next morning. By that time contractions were starting to get really painful. My mid-wife, Laurie, came in at about 9:30 and I only progressed to a 2...no good. It was going to be a long day, but in my mind I was going to get an epidural, so it was ok! (Little did I know dot dot dot) So, she stripped my membranes and broke my water and turned my world upside down. Not a moment passed before the contractions were almost unbearable. They were coming every two minuets and the intensity was INSANE. I was NOT mentally prepared for pain that quick and intense! So they tried to get me in a tub to try to relieve it a little but by this time the contractions were so close I didn't have time to move. 20 min after she broke my water I was a 5! By this time there wasn't a break in between contractions, they were coming one right after another. So they called for the epidural, and boy did he take his sweet time! By the time he got there and put in the epidural in, I was measuring at a 10! Needless to say the epidural did not kick in until AFTER the baby and AFTER the wretched stitches. I will never forget however, the first sight of my baby boy. I just wanted to hold him and never let him go, and protect him from any harm, physically and spiritually. That was also the first time I have ever seen Miles get emotional. What a fabulous new chapter in our lives! What a physically and emotionally draining experience! And yet, I feel better then I have ever felt, happier then I've ever been!

FIRST STRETCH MARK?!?! AH!!! Feb 24, 2011

Ok, today I noticed my very first stretch mark! Today is also...MY DUE DATE!!! That means I am writing this to send out energy and a message to the universe letting it know that I'M DONE BEING PREGNANT!!!! I've tried really hard to stay optimistic during this pregnancy, after all, I am living my purpose. I'm creating and fulfilling that which I know I was sent here to do. But believe me, being positive has been one of the harder parts of the past nine months. I was so sick the first tri-mester that I lost 20 lbs, the second tri-mester I had to get my gall-bladder removed, and the 3rd I've been trying to not LOSE MY MIND, because I'm still pretty sick. TODAY, however, is the day....After throwing up all night and finding my first stretch mark...it is time to have this little baby boy!!!! However, the best part about this pregnancy has been my super-amazing husband. I know I haven't even liked being around me being so sick and brain-dead, but he was a trooper and helped to really come back to reality and realize the good in it all. Next post that you read will have pictures of our handsome little boy!!!!

I'm one proud wifey!!!

Ok, I just need to take a second and brag about my amazing husband. He has always been a person of hard work and integrity, something I definitely looked for in a husband. Lately things have really been starting to show. First is his internship in the Boeing Business Department. He recently talked to someone in the internship program that explained to him that he was one of the six who were hand-chosen out of hundreds of applicants. Meaning: they were really impressed and wanted him specifically! He flies up there for a two day conference next week (yes, the week I am due with our first baby) and meets all the managers. We are SOOO excited to move up there in May! Second, he received a letter in the mail congratulating him on being chosen for the most "Outstanding Student" of the year award. He got two tickets to a banquet but we had no idea what this meant...soooo....he went and talked to the assistant to the Dean. She personally introduced him to the Dean and they congratulated him like crazy saying that this is one of the most "prestigious" awards that SUU hands out. Along with the banquet he gets a plaque and a sponsor....aka scholarship! YAY! AND on top of all of this, he is going to be a daddy! I could literally go on all day about how amazing he is. It's been such a hard year with me being so sick and he has had to pick up on all my slack, but it just goes to show that the Lord really does keep us in mind. Miles made a goal that we would read scriptures together everyday this year and so far we have been 100%! I truly believe that when we do our part...the Lord does His...and more!!! God be Thanked!!!!

'Tis the Season

Christmas was AWESOME! We had most of the family come to Cedar City. I was sad Brooke's family couldn't make it, but glad Mason is where he is. Everyone else came! We were able to talk to Elder Mason on Skype! He looks soooo amazing and happy. He's working hard and not wasting a bit of the Lord's time!

I've lived in Cedar City for 6 years and have never spent a single Christmas here, so that was fun. We sure had a full house, lots of amazing food, and fun things always going on. We always love having Erin's family and Lance come down. It was also SO fun to have my nieces Evelyn and Mabel here! They live in Oregon and I don't get to see them much. Mabel was born on Thanksgiving and still hasn't learned how to cry. She is such a good baby and, of course, SOOO cute! Miles with Evelyn and Mabel

We didn't take many pictures, unfortunately, but it was really great to have lots of family for the Holidays. Miles and I are SO excited for 2011!!! We have a cute baby boy on the way, an internship in Seattle for the summer, and decisions about grad school. Life is so good and I'm so happy I get to spend it with an amazing man like MILES!!!