Thoughts on Motherhood

I used to think that the happiest I had ever been was when I was loving the deepest I had ever loved, and that was when I lived in Ecuador working in the orphanages. Because of that experience I felt that my true calling or mission in life was orphanage work because I had never felt so happy or complete. I pursued those dreams for many years trying to accomplish what I "knew" to be who I really was. At one point I was even willing to jeopardize getting married and having my own family because of how strong I felt about "being and influence" and "changing the world." But now, as I hold my baby boy I feel more powerful then I could have ever dreamed. Feeling the power of his spirit I feel that by being his mother I will change the world. By bringing him here and raising him in righteousness, teaching him of the power that he can have through Christ...is the "influence" and "change" I will make. I now feel like I know who I really am because of my little baby. Motherhood has brought a new view to life, a new resolution to become better and more like Christ, a deeper desire to serve others, and new sense of who I really am and the greater power I have. I know that Winston is already changing the world, one diaper at a time. Ha Ha

When becoming a mother there are two things that I have absolutely needed...1.) My own mother and 2.) Miles. First, it's amazing how much you need your mommy when you become one. Luckily, mine lives in the same town. She is the best person alive when it comes to service. She knows exactly what is helpful and how she is needed. What a perfect example to have as a "mother." Second, Miles has been the CUTEST dad in the whole world! I didn't change a diaper for the first 2 weeks of Winn's life. When Miles went back to work I changed my first diaper (which happened to be a blow-out, of course). I know that Miles is such an amazing father because he is an amazing Husband. One of my favorite quotes says something like, "the best way to show your love for your children, is to love their mother." Miles is superb at this. He is incredibly loving and understanding and fun and on and on and on. I love seeing his love for Winn. I married a true man! It just makes me so excited for our life together and there is nothing I want more then to be with them for eternity. Thank goodness that "families can be together forever, through Heavenly Father's plan."